I hate going to bed angry. Angry covers a whole range of emotions that span from feelings that arise from getting a paper cut to deep, dark depressive states. It’s nice to fall asleep with even the faintest glimmer of hope that tomorrow will be a brand new day - free of anchors and handicaps, real or imagined.

These are the things I did wrong today:

I wasn’t always honest. There is the generally accepted glossing-over of life that basically has no consequence, then there is “actual” dishonesty that involves deception. This includes not telling the whole truth. It is my feeling that honesty with others and yourself is the best policy. It provides the smoothest ride, and makes life better.
I became overly defensive during a heated exchange. This is a bad habit of mine. When cornered, or during arguments, I tend to act defensively and take that stance. Honestly, I’ve become quite good at it. However, that tact often convolutes discussions. It also almost guarantees that those involved will begin further, more heated arguing. It’s pointless and rarely solves anything.
I didn’t take the best care of myself.
I acted selfishly.

I’m sure there were more transgressions. Those are what have me going to bed with the vague sense that there are unfulfilled resolutions.

The best I can do is to learn and make apologies where they are warranted, and try life again tomorrow. For that opportunity, I am grateful.

good night friend

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