At night, first, I lay down in bed. What do you do? There are preparations, ablutions and medications. I have a cat named Jasper that only lets me touch him after I lay down. Then, for around 15 minutes he wants me to scratch his shoulders and spine. At some point he, I assume, feels satiated and he wanders over to the other endof the bed to sleep. For the other 98.8% of the day he avoids me like the plague.

What I try not to do is watch some Murder Show on my laptop. There’s something about laying in bed watching a Murder Show that is very comforting, but not always conducive to meaningful sleep. Waking up at 4 am and noticing that Murder Shows and Pharmaceutical Advertisements have been playing in your ears while you lightly sleep, dreaming of running through corn fields being chased by a team of Laboratory Workers - yikes. It’s no wonder I have to take medication to sleep through that.

🤔

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*time passes*

I was considering the notion of “being there in spirit” while I was having a moment that was awful. Usually, one says they were “there in spirit” when referring to an occasion that was positive or fun that they were not present to enjoy. Something, I forget what, was happening and I was considering how an old friend would think it was funny how miserable I was and I thought to myself, “well, he’s here in spirit”, and it occurred to me that it was amusing that he was there in spirit, but it was not a situation that one would want to share. Again, I forget what was happening. It must not have been all that bad because I do not recall.

I’m going to work.

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It is many days later. Like, 16. On several occasions persons have off-handedly mentioned that they, “thought the blog was funny.” Weird. I, once-again avow, yo do my best producing content. 🫱🏼‍🫲🏻

just to round this dumpster-fire of a thought worth any consideration out, life has been busy. Being an adult is very subtly all-encompassing. To where, one day, you’re found at a Town Meeting being voted onto some council. 🤔

My cat wants way more attention from me. It’s a hot, humid, hazy Julianic Night. May god bless us all. 😅